OUT OF MY HEAD

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Whenever I listen to our song, it took me back when we drove home in the night.

We never say it is our song by the way, but I declared it by myself that this is our song. It just remind me to you so bad. Also I can feel your presence.

I can feel that night, when we went outside of the city, you were driving, we were listening to the same music over and over again.

I felt the butterflies dancing in my stomach. I felt my heart squeezed by an invisible hand.

Do you remember our fingers was crushing many times when we were about to set the volume?

I felt the electricity when our fingers touched each other.

Also I remember, when I kept screaming inside my head that "I DON'T WANT THIS NIGHT TO BE END". Thousand times I said that.

Now, when I listen to this song it just break my heart, it is like torn apart like Canada island. Well, Canada islands is a bad example to describe it. But it is complicated. 

That song just remind me that we just two people that doesn't meant to be together. I like you, but I can't have you. 

I miss you so bad. I miss that time. I want it again. I want to spend time with you again. I want to feel you. I want to hear you that you like me too. I just want you. 


Xoxo, Nadila

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