Whenever I'm In Mood

weheartit.com Kau memasukkan ke dalam dengan kekuatan hawa batang putih itu Sambil mengeluarkan asap dari mulutmu, kau bercerita banyak "Ada, apa yang berbeda dari kita itu bukan lah bagian dari kita" Katamu seraya mematikan teori ku mengenai tidak ada agama yang mengajarkan keburukan Kita baru saja kenal Namun rasanya aku sudah mengenalmu sepuluh tahun lamanya Kau ambil lagi satu batang putih itu, katamu "Terakhir ya" Di sela hisapan itu kau terhenti Dan terus menanyakan "paham tidak?" "Kamu pikir aku bodoh?" Kataku dengan nada kesal  padamu Jika aku tau bahwa ini satu batang terakhir Aku akan menghabiskannya dengan rasa senang Bodohnya aku tidak mengerti kata-katamu Sekarang aku meronta akan hasrat berbicara denganmu Rupanya aku takut dengan kata terakhir Rupanya aku takut bahwa ini satu batang terakhir darimu Aku takut untuk tidak akan pernah berbicara lagi denganmu Meskipun kau sedikit mengintimidasi, namun percakapan itu yang selalu aku rind...

I don't know if I crazy enough to love someone that has a lot of risks to love. You're the mess I know from the start, but I keep running to you anyway. Yes, it is irrational kind of adolescent's mind. But I never regret it. People said love is blind, I said love is love. You're the perfect mess, sharp human. I didn't know that I was desperate for affection before I met you. Now you're here, always say yes to the crazy things I want to do. Karaoke to the song which has an African lyrics which we don't know how to pronounce it. Dance to Russian song and ruin your house with our dance moves. Can't stop thanking to your mom and dad.  Without them, you'll never exist in this messy yet comely world. Maybe I'll read this note in our wedding.  Oh, my cute dream that I always hope to happen.  I like the way you laugh at my jokes, funny or not, you laughed. I like your touch, and every layers of my skin does. I always want to be your wallet, so I can go w...

Whenever I listen to our song, it took me back when we drove home in the night. We never say it is our song by the way, but I declared it by myself that this is our song. It just remind me to you so bad. Also I can feel your presence. I can feel that night, when we went outside of the city, you were driving, we were listening to the same music over and over again. I felt the butterflies dancing in my stomach. I felt my heart squeezed by an invisible hand. Do you remember our fingers was crushing many times when we were about to set the volume? I felt the electricity when our fingers touched each other. Also I remember, when I kept screaming inside my head that "I DON'T WANT THIS NIGHT TO BE END". Thousand times I said that. Now, when I listen to this song it just break my heart, it is like torn apart like Canada island. Well, Canada islands is a bad example to describe it. But it is complicated.  That song just remind me that we just two people that doesn't meant to b...

I am the thinker. I think too much. I can not stop to think. But sometimes it really bother me. That's a good thing about thinking, right? At least I've learned something from my own thought. Not just ignore them. I've been in this world for 23 years. Some people said that I just began to learn about life, but for some people said I am too old to watch bare bears. I know dude, this life will be harder. But here something I've learned from life so far. 1. Don't be so naive with life. Growing up makes me more realistic in life, I don't want to expect rainbow and waterfall, because life will give you storm and hurricane, or even earthquake. Do not think that everything will be easy-peazy, just to make sure I will not disappointed by my expectation. 2. Sometimes just keep silent is a bliss. When I have a rage conversation with others, it's better to just keep silent as long as nothing will harm me. Don't think hastily. Relax and think again should I react to...

Dalam satu meja bundar lima gadis berbincang, namun tidak ada kata 'mendengar' diantara mereka.  Maaf tidak menemukan gambar lima gadis di meja bundar hehe Gadis satu selalu menunjukan kepintarannya, "Kadang aku aneh dengan orang yang tidak suka membaca. Maksudku, membaca itu asyik, selera mereka rendah sekali", katanya seraya suara dalam pikirannya berbisik "aku ingin mereka melihatku sebagai orang yang intelegen". Lalu gadis dua tertawa kecil sambil menyeruput brown sugar bobanya, "Aku sih suka baca, tapi baca komik anime, aku ga suka sama kisah romantis yang menye-menye , ewww itu hanya membuat aku ingin muntah". Dia sangat berpikir bahwa menjadi 'perempuan yang berbeda dari perempuan yang lain' adalah sesuatu yang keren dan menjadikannya suatu manusia yang jarang ditemukan. Kesunyian pun mulai berteriak ketika mereka memikirkan apa yang harus mereka katakan dan menunggu giliran siapa yang harus bicara.  Saatnya gadis tiga menunjukan...

It's 10:45 night here But it's 5:45 afternoon in Austria Some people are sleeping here Some people are preparing for the dinner in Austria I believe there's one girl in America She's just turn 18 today She feels free and happy And also today she decides to be a porn star I believe there's one guy in East Nusa Tenggara He's smoking a cigarette now He feels safe and calm in his balcony And also he is asking about the meaning of life I believe there's an elderly couple in Brazil They are sitting together in the backyard And feels grateful that they can breathe air While talking about their good old days I believe there's a bunch of teenage boys in Australia They are at their own home Chatting via discord and enjoying the game party While their parents are sleeping I believe there's a man out there in Algeria right now Praying to the good God and asking Him  "Please God, I've been trying" And believing there's no one than God that he ca...

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Kita memang beragam Kau, aku, dia, dan pria itu Aku lelah dengan keberagaman Tetapi dunia membosankan jika kita seragam Jika aku bisa memilih Aku akan pilih hanya ada satu kepercayaan Jadi aku bisa mencintaimu dengan tenang Mencintaimu dengan derai angin dan aksi dedaunan

Bercerita tentang takdir, semakin banyaknya waktu kosong yang saya miliki, semakin banyak pula pikiran yang sama sekali tidak pernah terlintas oleh saya. Sekarang saya memikirkan tentang takdir. Takdir, takdir, dan takdir yang terus melintasi pikiranku. Orang-orang percaya bahwa kita hidup di dunia ini karena takdir, kita meninggal kelak karena takdir, kita bisa bercengkrama dengan kawan lama di sebuah restoran karena kita sudah ditakdirkan untuk bertemu mereka di restoran.   Saya merupakan orang yang percaya bahwa semuanya sudah ada di dalam rencana Tuhan, bagiku tidak ada yang kebetulan. Hal kecil saja seperti bertemu dengan kasir yang menyebalkan itu sudah direncanakan oleh Tuhan, mungkin orang tua akan berkata “biarlah kasir itu menjadi penghapus dosa untuk kita”, mungkin ya mungkin tidak. Namun ada satu hal yang membuatku terus berpikir mengenai takdir. Bercerita mengenai pengalamanku dulu, saya pernah jatuh cinta pada teman sekelas saya hingga bertahun-tahun, saya sungguh...

 *cough* skin care *cough* Hey y'all! Let's talk about skin care which something that I'm not really know about. It's kinda strange for me talking about it. I'm kinda person who is really careless about my skin. But here I am, skin care is another thing that is important in life (maybe?). Actually my essential skin care is being neat. I feel gross if I touch my skin without wash my hand and always wear a mask (even before this pandemic) when I ride my motorcycle. But here I am again trying to be cool to talk about SKIN TO THE CARE. Even sometimes I don't give a sh*t to my skin but I also have six items of skin care. Not really much if compare it to beauty vlogger or girl who really skin care enthusiast. So here are my skin care: Morning Skin Care My morning skin care is so basic, first of all I use Rose Water from haple.id  I've been using this rose water for 2 or 3 years I guess, I like it because somehow my skin a lil bit brighter than usual. After that I...

It's late July and I just have a will to write about my June's challenge. It was drank enough water. Actually, in 2018 I already did this challenge, and I really feel the impact, my skin wasn't dry anymore and what's the amazing thing was milia disappear. So, what I feel in 2020? First thing first, the best skincare is drink water, get enough of water. I am more like to ignore to drink because I think that I'm just too lazy to get downstair and take a glass of water. But drink enough water is as important as brush your teeth. Before this challenge begin I only drink water before and after have a meal. So that maybe only 6 glasses of water, or 1,2 liter per a day (200ml per a glass). As a reminder, I downloaded Water Drink Reminder  app on my phone. It can calculate my water requirements in my body based on body weight. I'm 44 kg and I need 1452 liter per a day (Idk how they calculate this tho). Based on my daily habits of drink water and the requirement of water...

30 DAYS CHALLENGE, LEARN SPANISH AND FRENCH  SPANISH ¡Hola! ¿como estas?  Yo aprendo español por treinta dias.En realidad me gusta aprendo español, porque yo siempre quiero aprender más idiomas. No solo íngles, pero más idiomas, como español y francía. En treinta dias, yo aprendo mucho como, viajar, trabajar, escuela, familia, greetings,  y muchos mas. Tengo que aprender m ás. Yo creo que aprender español es muy divertida y Yo necesito hablar en español con el su español. FRENCH Salut! Comment ça va? Ça va bien. Je m'appelle Nadila. J'habite à Bandung avec mon pere, ma mere, ma sœur, mon frere, et ma nièce. Je n'ai pas animal de compagnion, je veux avoir un chat, but my mom doesn't allow me to have it. Hahaha it's my first time to write something that not in English or Indonesian or Sundanese. Learning language is fun, muy divertida! Pero, muy confusing. Sometimes, when I learn French my brain just say it in Spanish. It's confusing actually to speak more than 2 ...

It's May already. Harder level of 2020 game. Hi guys, how are you? I hope you're all safe, fill your life with happiness and other good stuff amid this pandemic. First of all, I didn't write any challenge on last month because on March I kinda had a secret challenge that I don't want anybody knows. "Keep Organize" challenge was April challenge, so I'm going to tell you how was it went. Keep organize means I have to maintain the neatness of my room and doing clean the house stuff.. I like to organize things and people hahaha, but sometimes I feel so lazy to only just make a bed. This challenge push me more to organize, not only make a bed, I have to clean my room so that anyone can't see the dust in any corner, mop the floor, ironing clothes, wash the dishes after having a meal. Let me quote an inspirational words from I forgot who is his name, so this man work in military in USA (I guess, I really forgot), he said:   "if you wake up and ...

Alright, It's the beginning of March so I'm gonna tell you how was my 'get enough sleep' challenge went. So, usually I woke up at 7 a.m. and went to bed around 12 or 1 a.m. Many people said, adult needs 7 to 9 hours sleep. Well, I'm not really sure about it, so I did my little research, and it's right adult needs 7 to 9 hours sleep. I'm not really busy lately, because I have no job and things to do, so this is the right time for me to do this challenge. Back to when I was a college student, I slept less than 7 hours. Homeworks, thesis, group projects, it killed my sleep time back then. I remember I was not sleep for more than 36 hours because I had something to do with my university stuff. How did I feel? It was not good, not recommended. I've ever feel sleep more than 9 hours, and it was not feel good as well, I felt tired (after 10 HOURS OF SLEEP, YES TIRED), unstable mood, and dizzy.  I realize the quality of sleep is really important for my p...

Hello Y'All! It's the end of the first month in 2020 and I guess the free trial of the year has expired. New year means new resolutions, and that's what usually people do to improve and develop themselves. Some people making a resolutions like losing weight, eat healthier food, exercise more, and other good things. Also, some people do their lists of resolution in one time, like waking up at 5 A.M, after that go for a jog, etc. for me that kind of resolution is hard to do. I'm not kind of people who can do new things in one time, maybe I can stand that new habits for only 5 or 10 days. Lucky me, I 've watched a video from a youtuber named Matt, he shared his new habits to develop himself in a year. But, he did it one habit per a month, so that 12 new habits in a year. He said that he's not the typical of people like me, who can't stand do new things in one time. So I'm gonna try his tricks in 2020. Which habits will change my life, because mayb...