I'M DONE WITH INSTAGRAM

In this post I'm gonna tell you why I deleted my instagram account. If you ever feel like instagram kills your time, you should read this till the end, because I will give you a gem to 'done' with instagram.

So, I used instagram from 2012-2018 because everybody has instagram so I made mine. I really like instagram because it could improve my photography skill. Besides that, instagram really helped me whenever I want to stalk anyone (celebrities, ex's new girlfriend, crush, etc) or even online shop accounts!!!

In 2012 instagram just an application that let users upload their photo, comment, like, follow other users, and explore worldwide photos. I think there were not a direct message (correct me if I'm wrong). I like the old instagram because I think it was the simple yet cool application. 

 

In 2014 instagram has direct message feature that let users communicate with others and a lot of users has signed in. I was getting addicted to instagram to find out online shop or even find my old friends. I wasn't that addicted to instagram in 2014, BUTTTTT in 2015 when I got my new phone with a good camera I was getting soooo freaking addicted to it. I uploaded photos that I took and yeah I was crazy to likes. Fastforward to 2016 when instagram add new feature.... it was Instagram Story. Yeah, it more like snapchat, users can upload photos or videos that vanish after 24 hours. I AM MORE ADDICTED TO INSTAGRAM!!!!!!!

I watched every my friend's instagram story. Yes it was fun, but I found out that myself didn't feel grateful for whatever I had in my life. For example, I watched my friend was having a good meal and I thought to myself (damn, why I'm just sitting here and not get food) yes just be honest I got that jealous and it made me not confident for who I am. For example, *looking at someone's photo with a good outfit*, I was sooo not confident for myself, like OMG I REALLY WANT TO BE LOOK LIKE HER. The point is when we try to look like someone or steal their style it will not change us thoooo. 

Yeah I'm not blaming instagram because I get jealous or even not confident with myself, I'm blaming to myself. It was just like I aware that instagram wasn't a good social media for me. Any positive words like "just be yourself and be grateful for whatever you have" really changed me in one day, the next day without me realize that I looked at someone's photo and be like "OMG I really want to be like her" (again).

Besides getting jealous or not confident with myself, I found out that instagram story killed my time, I could be more productive without looking for my following's IG Story. Looking someone having a good life and me watching them by IG story really killed me. I could be choose happy than jealous, right? I could be more productive than looking at my phone over and over again, right?

So, in June 2018 I decided to change my password with random alphabet and numeric that I wrote on paper. I changed my password and deleted my account. After deleted my account, I threw away that paper and forgot what my password is. In that case, I will not getting my instagram account back whenever I really want to have it back. I'm gonna try for one year without instagram,or maybe forever without instagram. If I get my account back or even I make my new account, I will learn that I'm gonna use it wisely.

After two months without instagram I am more productive, in one hour looking at instagram I could be jealous or even not grateful or just wasting my time looking at the fake world. In one hour doing something productive, I can doing my hand embriodiery or even drawing or learning Spanish or trying new songs with my guitar/recorder, or talking to my family, or writing blog or story. I'm not to ask you guys to stop using instagram, but I ask you guys to use it wisely and do something more productive and yes talk to someone!!

XOXO, Nadila.