FOXTROT UNIFORM CHARLIE KILO

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 I'm buying a ticket to Sierra Leone today

This is the last day in this city and the subway

Disappear from the world is my plan

Changing my name to Julian or Vivian


Staying in not so cool hotel for a week

Going fishing with some locals with red cheek

“Jule, do you living your life?” he asks

“Yeah, here I’m free without any mask”


Hanging out with another tourist, he is an alpha

Can’t tell if he’s Arabi or Spanish, but we doing a spa

He’s so tall, tan skin, and for sure he is also disappearing

Oh no, turns out he is working as a researcher and there’s a ring


Watching a video of me and you doing the foxtrot twice today

It makes me chuckle like when you said you do like me the other day

All the messages, all the calls, you can not reach me, I changed my number

You counted 500 messages, that was the last time, I hope I can do better


This is me trying to be an alpha girl like you wished for

No dear, it is not for you, that's useless, this is my endeavor

I remember when you burn me and the flame kiss my rage

I said “f*ck off”, but my vision shows our non-exist marriage


Why it is too easy for you, from June to November

It is so hard for me to forget and get out of the chamber

My old friend, smoking feels so much better now

Dancing to a good song and letting the blood flow


Nadila J. Islamiaty

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